Blog 3

In chapter 38, Estella made many realizations. These realizations showed when Estella and Pip returned to Miss Havisham's house. There, Estella picked a fight with Miss Havisham. During the fight, Estella spits out this, "I am what you have made me" (304). This is self explanatory, Estella has come to the realization that Miss Havisham has molded her into who she is and controls the way she thinks and acts. Beforehand, Estella was Miss Havisham's blind ginuea pig. Towards the end of the fight Estela says this meaningful passage, "If you had taught her, from the dawn of her intelligence, with your utmost energy and might, tht there was such a thing as daylight, but that it was made to be her enemy and destroyer, and she must always turn against it, for it has blighted you and would else blight her..." (306). In this passage, I intrepted the daylight to be love. Herbert told us earlier in the story that Miss Havisham's love for one man caused her life to crash down on herself. Estella came to this realization, that the pain that love has created for Miss Havisham to feel caused Miss Havisham to raise Estella to be immuned to love. She realized that she could not feel emotions.

In chapter 39, Pip's dreams fell apart when he found out who his benefactor was. The convict, wich he helped in the beginning of the story, comes to his house in England and told Pip that he's Pip's benefactor. This led Pip to discover that Miss Havisham was not his benefactor and that it is not planned that Estella is going to marry him. From this, he realized that he was just a toy for Miss Havisham and Estella to fiddle with and create pain in his life. He also comes to realize that leaving Joe and Biddy to live as a gentleman was a selfish and inconsiderate act, "I would not have gone back to Biddy now, for any consideration: simply, I suppose, because my sense of my own worthless conduct to them was greater than any consideration"(323).

Because Estella realized that she was Miss Havisham's ginuea pig, I feel that she will try to undo what Miss Havisham has done to her and that she will stop listening to her. She will seperate from Miss Havisham, creating freedom for herself from her manipulating, overcontrolling guardian. With this new freddom she will attempt to feel love. Maybe in her attempt to find love, she will focus on Pip and admire him. Pip's world turned upside down. He went from feeling embarassed of being common and dreaming to be a gentleman to unsure on his desires. He does not want to live a guilt filled life accompied by the convict and he does not want to return home because of his guilt. He will become distressed and stuck on the fence between his two options. In which, I think may end in him turning the convict in and returning home. All in all, I feel that Estella and Pip will switch roles, Pip will become a realist and Estella will become an idealist opposed to Pip being an idealist and Estella being a realist.